i find myself wondering
what it would have taken
for you to believe in me
the way i believed
in you.

~lt

Billy Joel once said “I don’t need clever conversation. I just need someone I can talk to.” And tonight, I’d really like that person to be you.

~lt

i am kept up at night
by wondering
how close we were
to a house with a red door
and dancing in the kitchen
while we waited for the pizza we made
to be done.

~lt

darkness closes in
from time to time
though abated
by the lights
i leave on
for you.

~lt

the way
your nose would crinkle
when i would say something stupid
was all my heart needed
to know.

~lt

i despise your cowardice;
your ability
to soften
the hardness in my heart
for life,
for love,
only to leave
much how you found it.
i pray
you never
understand
this pain.

~lt

i look for you
in every one i see
and find myself
disappointed
each
and every
time.

how could i ever
try and forget
the times spent with someone
that made me feel alive?
the times spent
with someone
that made this cruel world
worth fighting for?

i could never
be like you.

~lt

i miss the days
when you and i
were trying
to barely get ten minutes
with each other.
the days
when we didn’t have to hide
the future we wanted
together.

i miss you.

~lt

i wish i could see you again.
just one last time.
i want to see how happy you are
without me
so i can know
that all of the pain
of living without you
is worth it.

~lt